here's to hoping this last glass of wine and my favourite new band will enfold me in catatonic arms and let me sleep in peace. no more dreams of your face distorted, disappointed, unloving. no more waking to the reality that you are gone and i am alone. if only your body was cocooned around me in this cold. if only i could go back. i am here, but my {xxx} is with you still. with these songs i attempt to fill in the spaces. like sea water through cupped hands, my heart runs out.

 i am with you.

*Can't help myself but count the flaws/Claw my way out through these walls/One temporary escape/Feel it start to permeate
We lie beneath the stars at night/Our hands gripping each other tight/You keep my secrets hope to die/Promises, swear them to the sky
The bittersweet between my teeth/Trying to find the in-betweens/Fall back in love eventually/yeahyeahyeah* {Young Blood}