i drink my wine, i listen to the melancholy songs that fill my soul with longing and echoes in the emptiness. you sing: i'm afraid of everyone. i don't have the drugs to work it out.

i try to forget. forget my dreams. i am already forgetting your face. i am already letting you go, join the flood of the past. it was as i had always known it would be, in the dusty corners of my forgotten heart, too good to be true. too lovely to be real. so much more than i could ever hope for, though exactly as i have always wished. and you, you.

if only your ghost would leave me to suffer in peace.

i fell down a well of hope
when the winds picked up
and swirled around us
you just stood back and watched it all
dissolve

i need to fill in these empty spaces
distractions to kill the time
the voices inside
start a war

but the dreams are so real
the beautiful trees in bloom, cherry
grass oh so green, late afternoon
and the wings we grew
violent

it will bring you
bring you to the ground
and i will leave you
on your knees
a face to taunt my heart dark
forever

lose it, loose the knot now
the static that tries to hold you back
the world that would pin you down
escape escape